Nothin!!

I have nothing to inscribe, maybe I’m not that inflamed or not that frustrated rather hehehe. Just check my muzzic, at least there I was able to post some lyrics of the songs that I like,

hay.. Till next time that my brain works again.

Tired? nahh!!

Done so many things today.
I woke up at 6:am. Do some sit-ups, do some belly dancing (hahaha, baka sakaling pumayat).
Practice to drive around the block w/out shifting gears, but this time I make sure na di na ko naka handbrake, hehehe, and I must say nag improve na ko ng onti, nakapark na ko ng maganda.
Prepares breakfast.
Look after those two whining little rascals (my nephews).
Go to office
Finished plotting subs.
Do some changes w/ my blog.
Go to the bank w/ grace
Whew! This surely is a tiring day. Am I tired? Nah, but its ok. I hope tomorrow that I would be as productive as today.

navigate!

I added some "pampagulo ng buhay" here in my orb, to make my blog more complicated. I added the FLAMBEAUX where I can post poems, short stories or anything, I also added the MUZZIC where I can post the lyrics of my fave songs or even my not so favorite songs hehehe. I also added this mouse follower thing. At malapit na kong ma bad trip, as in ggrrrrr!! Yung mouse ko with tagged words on it doesn’t work well. As u can see it only appears when you are pointing it in the header part, w/c is supposedly to appear in all parts of this blog. Man I’m having a bad time with that thingie.. Hay buhay hope I could fix it in time before I lose my sanity. Grrrrrrrr...

interview w/ the vampire!!

(kunwari celebrity din ako tapos ininterview ako ni tim yap, tapos yan ang title tapos gani2 ang isasagot ko)

OVER ACTING OR XRATED INDIVIDUAL!
Interview by Tim Yap

1. thing about fame?
fortune! di ba magkasunod yun parati?

2. the thing I love most about what I do is?
di ako pinapansin sa office, pwede ako mg leave lagi, bwahahaha! kc walang apektado kung wala ako, bwahahaha! wag lang pag deadline na ng mga tax at fs. at cge na nga kahit na 2maas pa ang ego nyo hanggang langit e dahil sa INYO mga fans ko, este officemate pala, esp GRACE & LEA

3. people might be surprised to know that i am?
not nice? not so innocent & sweet? bwahahaha! im a good singer! hehehe

4. the most important thing i learnt is?
a)not everyone who smiles at you likes u
b)do not believe it when the guy asks u "will u marry me" unless he has given u "that precious ring" bwahahaha!
c)when u apply for work and they says "dont call us, we'll call u" di ka tanggap, hahaha!
d) pag sinabing sakyan mo na, sakay ka para di mahulog sa "over the top" activity sa subic!

5. the secret to happiness is?
contentment and selflessness!

6. my best ever outfit consisted of?
pants, shirt,rubbershoes

7. manila would be better w/out
traffic & pollution (at corny na traffic aid na malaki ang tyan at naka high heeled boots, yeew)

8. my super saturday night consists of
date w/ someone, tapos me take out pa, libre diba? hay kakamiss din...

9. the sountrack of my life would include
Come What May ng Mouline Rouge

10. my fave subject include,
ewan algebra yata at p.e.

11. during my space time, i love to
watch the t.v., play w/ my nephews or sleep

12. if i was invisible for a day i would
go to ----- house and gather all the infos ng kasinungalingan nya at lahat ng kaliit-liitang detalye sa buhay nya,, bwahahaha! tapos sasabihin ko sa kanya na me kaibigan ako na ngsusurvey sa bahay nila patay sya, astig diba!

13. the thing that makes me most angry is
liars!! o yung maingay na walang sense ang cnasabi! at pag me nang away sa kaibigan ko or pamilya ko, patay ka!

14. if i was the most powerful person on earth i would
take over the world, and have my own talkshow! hehehe

15. if money was no option i
would travel the world, magpa lipo, pay the country's debt!

16. when i retire i would like to
sana super rich na ko tapos magstay in our house sa batangas, kasama ang hubby ko, anak at apo,,, (hay kelan kaya? )

17. the world would be a much better place if
there's no poverty, no one fights for that "power thingie"

18. my hero is
HIM! corny pero totoo, sya lang me alam ng lahat lahat ng pinagdadaanan ko araw-araw, sya lang ang nakikinig sakin, ang karamay ko pag super down ako! at ang di nagagalit pag di ako nagsisimba!

19. the thing that makes my life worth living is
my family

20. my greatest hope for the future is
world peace, (sabay wave, miss universe na ang dating )

ok ba?? pwede na ulit for the next interview, kay OPRAH naman, hehehe

3 yrs from now?

ano ba talaga ang gusto kong mangyari sa buhay ko?

saturday - oct 3, 2004 tinanong ako ni grace "3 yrs from now nasan ka?"(HR na hr ang dating nya). hirap ng tanong parang interview sa pag a apply sa trabaho , pero mas maiksi na kc kalimitan 5 yrs or 10 yrs ang question pero sa kanya 3 yrs lang. ano ba sagot ko? "ewan ko basta ang alam ko wala na ko sa P.A.".. ngayon napapaisip ako san nga kaya ako pupulutin 3 yrs from now? ayoko namang maiwan d2 sa P.A. at tiisin ang minsang nakakaasar na boss diba?
lahat ng kasama ko ngayon bc ng aaply sa singapore, india, kuwait, canada o kahit iraq daw ok na din daw basta makaalis lang sa pinas. ako? ayoko umalis e, ewan ko pero me pumipigil sakin, di ko alam kung dahil sa pamilya ko, sa mapapabayaang ari-arian o dahil sa takot ko mismo sa mangyayari pg umalis ako.

sabi nga ni lea ako ang me pinakamalaki ang possibility na makaalis kc lahat ng sa side ng tatay ko nasa california na, american citizen na. madali na sakin ang makasunod pero ewan ko wala talaga sa isip ko na magwork o manirahan sa ibang bansa. open ako sa pag alis pero bakasyon lang cguro. di ko talaga alam naguguluhan ako kung bakit ang natanim sa isip ko e "kaya kong umunlad sa sariling bansa ko"
pathetic? corny? plastic? o stupid?

well pwede mo itawag sakin lahat yan pero at this point of time in my life ganyan pa ko ka "idealistic". 25 na pero idealistic parin? stupid diba.. ewan ko ba, cguro di pa ko nakakaramdam ng ganong katinding paghihirap kaya di ko naiisip. Oo sa biruan nasasabi ko na magdya japan ako kc sabi malaki kita dun pero hello' e sa itsura ko pa lang e reject na hahaha.. ewan ko talaga ang gulo,, ewan ko pero minsan naiisip ko din cguro kung nasa ibang lugar ako i can be free, wala ng magtatanong kung bakit late ko umuwi ( 8 ang usual kong uwi pero 10 pa lang e sobrang late na sa kanila timang diba?), walang magtatanong kung san ako galing, wala ng susundo ng 8 pm pag me school reunion.

hay... ang saya cguro nun no,, pero ngayon pa lang at naiisip ko na di ko makikita ang lola ko, kapatid ko, pamangkin ko, parang gus2 ko ng maluha.. OA ba? pero totoo yun, sobrang attach ako s pamilya ko sila na lang kc ang natitira, cguro kc naranasan ko ng iwan at mawalan ng mahal sa buhay, at ayoko ng magdagdag pa ng burden sa kanila na mapalayo ako, ako pa na kung sa lord of the ring e ako ang "the precious" nila, (hehehehe)..
alam ko masama din ang epekto, baka daw di na ko makapag asawa (HALA KA!). pero di naman cguro, di ko pa naman isinasara ang possibilities, me mga bagay lang akong dapat ayusin, at baka next yr matapos ko yun, me mga plano ako na di pa natutupad lahat and since isang plan ko e nagawa na, unti-unti na lang at onti pang encouragement from them or onti pang frustrations baka nga makalis din ako,, ang tanong e kelan?
me bago na namang tanong, e yung unang tanong pa lang ni grace di ko na masagot, sa haba ng sinulat ko, ng namuni-muni ko pero eto ako wala pa rin konkretong sagot.. di naman ako si nostra damus o c madam auring.

basta ang alam ko lang e ako c AIKAT, isang babaeng me simpleng pangarap, di ko man maabot ngayon lahat, alam ko me bukas pa para sa lahat. habang me sumisikat na liwanag sa umaga me pag asa, at kung lumubog man ang araw at magtakipsilim na, alam ko anjan lang mga kaibigan ko, pamilya ko, at SYA.

" i leave everything to HIM, i know HE is the only one who knows what is in store for me. all i have to do is believe and trust HIM. i know that he will tell me what to do, where to go, and when,, i just have to pray, listen to what HE will say and obey. LET HIS WILL BE DONE"

100 things about mwahh!!

MY ASSIGNMENT
to complete the 100 things about me, man im having a hardtime completing it, as if i dont know anything about me phew,, this is quite a task ei'' just for the blog. tsk just for the blog. and ngayon bwahahaha!! natapos ko na, at mejo naiisip ko na ano kaya dagdagan ko pa, pero di na kaya ng powers ko, so eto muna, next time 1000 things about me naman

1 nick: Aikat
2 Batangueña
3 partly aeta hehehe
4 lives now in L.P.
5 1bros & 1 sis
6 youngest
7 orphan
8 leo
9 height : 5'4"
10 fair complexion
11 hair color: black
12 eye color : black
13 3 hikaw sa tenga
14 Elementary - Canossa Academy LP
15 High school - Saint Joseph Institute RB
16 College - PUP SM
17 works for P.A. In U.N.
18 sfc
19 Accountant
20 needs lip gloss always
21 into writing .. Kahit ano
22 loves my 2 cute nephews
23 loves to sing
24 sings badly
25 loves to dance
26 danced badly
27 loves to eat
28 can't cook
29 don’t know how to ride the bike
30 still learning how to drive
31 malabo mata
32 wears contacts
33 mahina pandinig (sabi ni lea)
34 asar sa me pagka bingi din (hehehe)
35 talks a lot
36 boses lalake
37 lampa
38 mahilig tumawa
39 bihira ngumiti
40 pero ngumingiti mag isa lalo na sa fx pag me naalala na nakakatawa
41 maingay
42 mahilig matulog sa fx
43 treasures friends til the end
44 bias na tao when it comes to family
45 treasures letters from friends
46 treasures my pictures baka mapagkakitaan someday, bwahahaha!
47 insecure minsan
48 nagmumura pero di mapigilang pag kaharap c lei
49 mentor ng kalokohan (pero mas magaling na ang tinuruan ko n c grace )
50 consultant ng walang kakwenta kwentang bagay
51 mushy
52 boyish
53 ayaw sa me pagkaslow pumick up
54 hates liar
55 but i am a good liar
56 likes man in uniform
57 minsan man hater
58 hates spiders
59 ayaw sa putol na buntot ng butiki at itlog ng butiki
60 talks to myself in the mirror when I’m super down ( it helps a lot)
61 hates racist
62 i am a reformist
63 prefers new year than Xmas
64 don’t like cheese
65 afraid of thunder, strong wind & big waves
66 planner
67 loves coffee lalo na ang kapeng barako pero ngayon iwas na due to palpitation
68 mahilig sa spareribs ng chowking
69 loves mcflury ng mcdo oreo flavor
70 love kids
71 maarte minsan
72 masungit
73 isan malaking deadma
74 autistic daw minsan, bwahahaha!
75 highly opinionated person
76 kuripot
77 di kayang pagsabayin ang pag iyak at pagkain
78 masunurin ( pag sinabing "sakay", sakay)
79 generous sa family
80 free spirited individual
81 sira ang ulo
82 takot mabasa ng ulan (baka dumami pa ko e, hehehe)
83 takot magutom
84 sentimental fool
85 keen observer
86 makulit
87 bitchy
88 annoying
89 pikon
90 mahilig sa rubber shoes
91 taong hindi nagba blush
92 tambay ng sementeryo pag nov. 1
93 cute sabi ni ano at ni ano at ni ano pa
94 di daw cute sabi ng lola ko ( humph)
95 madrama
96 ksp minsan
97 hates sarcastic person
98 dreamer
99 believer
100 survivor

Smile and be happy!

Loosing something that we used to cling on to is hard isn’t it. Letting go of someone that you used to love or still love rather is pretty much harder isn’t it. Not getting what you want makes u feel so so bad. And feeling rejected and avoided by your friend’s and colleagues isn’t good as well. Having all those family problems, financial problems, heart problems all piled up and tumbled down makes u feel suicidal, w/ this entire situation, have u ever think y do we have to let go? Why do we have to loose some one? Why do we have to give up? Why do we have to be sad & lonely? Why do we have to experience all this problems and heartaches?

Feeling looser ei?

Is it because nothing in this world is permanent? And everything that we have and owned is only lend to us by GOD? Does it mean that we can never have a permanent happiness, and we can only achieve our eternal peace when we joined HIM at our eternal rest?

hmmmm, maybe, but it does not mean we can never be happy even in short span of time, everybody does experience their own ups and downs, every body feels lousy and not pretty once in awhile but what is important is that u have the chance to get up, and be happy. Not because you haven’t got what you want means you are unlucky, not because you are not recognized means you are less love or less appreciated.

All you have to do is face the mirror held your head up high look straight in your reflection, smile and say "hey your the son of GOD, be happy". Stand straight, stand tall, and spread the happiness to all! Be the one to give joy and harmony to all. Always smile because you never know that a single smile gives a new meaning and inspiration to a lost soul.

nothingness!!

longing for something you know you cant have..
even if you wish so hard,,
even if you pray your heart aloud,,
blaming yourself for not believing..
blaming yourself for not listening ,,
now your having a hard time,,
forgiving,,
forgetting,,

i am lost..
dont know where i stand?
dont know where i am heading?
dont know where to begin?
can i still go back?
can i still go on?

moving on? i cant go on,,
hope i could still hang on..

too many questions..
cruelty of fate? will of the wind?
or the mystery of life?
hope i find the answer to my questions,
before oblivion prevails,,
before nirvana reigns..

nothing to say, so much to do..
being half a man..
is it too late to say?..
that until now i don’t understand..
i still don’t understand..

Event schwingsss!

Saturday, big day!
Reunion of all batches in SJI to commemorate Mr. Villanueva's 20th or 25th yr in service. Big event? duh!! But you know what I still salute him coz he have the chance to develop young minds without loosing his own hehehe.
Why do I still have to go? Big question ei? The reason is "wla lng?" and our cor commander of delta wing b-107 calls me in my phone . So i went there, with my best bud (nonay). It was exciting seeing old schoolmates, and stepping in our alma mater after 7 or 8 yrs. There are some changes but not that much that i would feel alienated. It was fun, we chitchat, eat, and drink. We are planning to stay until 10pm or 2 am, but what the F&^$? I have to go home at 7:30 p.m. Because my brother & my grandmother fetch me, $%%@ I wanted to shout at that moment (hello 25 na po ko). It was so badtrip. But what else can I do (masunurin po ako, kahit asar na asar ako). And so I go home and telling myself "buti pa si Cinderella she could stay until 12 midnight". Ang saya diba!! That's one hell of an experience ei!

Tribute to Mharlon!

To mharlon, all i can say is "you're the man", or whatever the case maybe, hehehe. Thankyou for helping me with this blog thing! as in! Mula sa pag link, pag gawa ng tagboard, and paglagay ng pix, and higit sa lahat ang pag inspire mo sakin w/ the articles that you posted. inspiring and informative...
thanx!!

try lang ulit!! maiba lang!

this is how i look like pag wala sa mood and i still have to work diba!?
mukhang problemado....
mukhang malalim ang iniisip.....
on how to pretend na busy busihan!! hehehe...