attack of so called "depression"

Im tired of searching to find a love up on a higher level and finding nothing but QUESTIONS & DEVILS. I never realized I was spread to thin. Till it was to late and I was empty within. Hungry! Feeding on chaos and living in sin. Down spiral where do i begin?

Where are you when I needed you most? Guess I was blinded by this extreme sadness. Where could you possibly be? Until WHEN will I search for you? Please let me know, if your coming or not.